So, it’s been a whole month since I’ve published a post! It seems like I haven’t opened WordPress in forever which in all honesty I haven’t. I’ve let the emails pile up for accounts I’ve subscribed to and I’ve been neglecting this little part of the internet. And it’s all because of one thing – my confidence.
My confidence has suddenly diminished. I was working so hard on building it on so many levels of work and life and all it took was one trigger and my confidence was knocked back into its box. I went right back into my shell and stuck to what I knew, that way I knew what I was doing and that I didn’t have to step out of my comfort zone. I was reluctant to take part in social events and got very nervous when I did. Even if I knew everyone that was going to be there! I would get nervous and would have a feeling of dread in my tummy before. Even when it was just family going to be there too!
I had an overwhelming feeling of anxiousness and I couldn’t control it. I would worry for days before hand about what to wear, how I was getting there, how I was getting home and a thousand other questions. It was tiring! I hated that I had become such a worrier for social events! It also started to be the same for work… I would worry the night before about the next day often for no reason at all. It was draining to say the least!
After a month of coaching from various friends and colleagues I’m back to building my confidence, stepping out of my comfort zone (I even wore MAC ‘Rebel’ on a night out, who’d had thought it?!) and I’m focussing on the postitves and my goals in life and work.
Towards the end of April I was looking forward to events and now I’m excited for the events I have in my diary! I have a fun packed May bank holiday weekend at the end of the month and a holiday at the beginning of June. I hope to share as much of these events as I can! I’ve missed the excitement of buying a product and reviewing it for thelissaway so I can’t wait to get stuck back in.
So, here’s to being back on track with posting and getting into a routine!