‘Don’t be afraid, just be yourself’
Starting this blog was a huge challenge to myself. I had a million and one pros and cons in my head. Each time I came close to creating it I would talk myself out of it. I decided in January that my New Years resolution was to start this and to not put it off for any longer. It did take me until March to post my first blog post, but here I am. After talking about it with a friend, she set me the 30 day challenge. To create an account, write a post and publish it – all in 30 days. I did it and I am really happy I did.
I’ve always loved reading blogs and have wanted to create one since I was a teenager. In fact, I used my MySpace as a blog and documented my days at school and summer holidays! It all started after I watched ‘The Perfect Man’ with Hilary Duff and thought that blogging would be fun. I soon discovered that it wasn’t ‘cool’ and deleted all of the posts. That remained one of my biggest fears starting a blog now, what if people wondered why I’m doing this? What if people think I shouldn’t be doing this?
Every time I talked myself out of starting this, it was because I was worried about what other people would think. I thought over and over about how people would react and if they’d think it was a silly idea or that I couldn’t do it. I worried that the content would be judged and so would I. I’ve always thought like this and I’ve always worried what other will think of me.
I then decided that I would keep my blog as under wraps as possible. It was more than likely that that way, no one was likely to come across it that I knew. Therefore, this meant not posting my name, sharing my social media and I wouldn’t share my posts on my own social media. This seemed like my best option. I could do what I’d wanted to do for the best part of 10 years and I didn’t have the worry of being laughed at or judged. Even though my boyfriend keeps telling me to just share the blog and not care what people think!
But I shouldn’t have to feel so worried! Of course, there will always be an element of worry because that’s just me! I worry about everything and anything! I over think the slightest of things. But, if it’s something that I’m doing that I enjoy and makes me happy then so be it. I’m not forcing anyone into reading my blog that doesn’t want to! This is a space for me to document the things I’m loving and want to tell people about. And I know that not everyone has the same taste and therefore my blog won’t be everyone’s cup of tea.
If there’s one thing that I hope you can take from this is to always be you. Don’t be afraid to be yourself and do what you want to. Even if it is doing something completely different and out of your comfort zone. We all have to grow and part of growing is challenging ourselves. I’m not sure I’ll ever not be afraid to hit publish and share on my social media, but at the moment it’s baby steps.
Here’s to more confident blogging!